MOVE AGAIN : Bangalore to Small town in Punjab
Recently moved to small town, after living in Bangalore... this move has hit me the hardest.. Half my heart wants to go back and other half wishes to remain as a family.
Possibilities of running small business in small town
But even after soo many moves, running a small business becomes more feasible in a city city, so starting all over new in 4th city has become a challenge.. ( or just block I have ) So stopped doing anything & grieving since I have moved here..
Light Dance : Waking the artist eye when no motivation left
After almost few months, one fine day while my son was washing hands, my eyes on auto mode saw the sparkling water, the light dance was so beautiful. And as if he read my mind, Shaurya said ‘Maaa get camera’.
Solution : Start all over again
So I started AGAIN, small little joy of making lego bridge.. It made me realize i started off this to document our life as family, the main ‘WHY’ was to do it for pure fun and joy..
Financial Stability Challenges
Ofcourse I loved when I got financial stability and it boosted my moral to pursue it more as professional. But simply put I just wish to be a ‘Storyteller’ for my family.. I forgot that !
Create for the love of it
I might or just not get any clients living in a small town, but why stop ??took a lot of time but I slowy started seeing the beauty of our everyday again.. a simple cup of tea brings me soothing joy.. and looking at light glitter on steam just soothes my heart.
( Reading Creative Act: A Way of Being helped )
( Reading https://chloelodge.substack.com Love affair with light kept me going )
So sitting back on my laptop now ( trying to complete pending work ) & look at it in a new perspective
Photography is more of Play & it heals wounded heart
My son has been pushing me more to document, which has surprised me !! Its our play time and somewhere its healing..
Non-Photography activities to do while feeling low
Did some beautiful MBA courses, read a lot of good books, binged watched K-dramas.. some days walked around like sleep deprived zombie too..
Still feel caught up in too many thoughts & decisions, but trying to resolve one problem at a time.
Time to start all over again
Not knowing might become daunting, but doesnt the hero overcome the obstacle and win the day ?
Been brooding over how good old days were , It felt like I am sitting in a movie re-watching over & over again.. Even though they done playing credits I do not wish to leave. Day dreaming how good it WAS, but now that Ends..
Time to starr in a new movie of life .. With villian as uncertainty & new locations .. Aim is to succeed anyway
Only YOU can pick yourself !
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